It's funny how sometimes I don't have anything to blog about, and sometimes the things to blog about come swarming in. I blog using 'blog-it's. No, it's not a brand of some idea-remembering system. My 'blog-it's are scraps of paper on which I write my ingenious (joking!) ideas ((:
Let me type you yesterday's.
TAWG yesterday was a squeeze. I had so little time for so much. So my dad, eager to teach me math, told me, "Okay BE QUICK." Oh man, I don't like that. But I tried. So, I used the 2 songs I found on Ruth's blog for TAWG (though the chords were wrong)! The 'no eye has seen no ear has heard' and 'empower me'. I thought empower me was quite out of place because I wasn't feeling inadequate like I was before SP class! But I sang it anyway, being in a hurry. After worship, I reached over for my Bible and I saw my comp MSN window blinking and 1 unread SMS. I was SO tempted to check out what was there. I am a VERY curious person, trust me. Anyway, yea, but thank God I didn't. I'm someone who cannot handle anything else during TAWG. Otherwise I really can't concentrate! Yep. And I controlled myself not to check what I received until the end of TAWG!
Okay yep but that wasn't the main story, actually! The main story was the content of the SMS. The IM was just an... added distraction! Sorry, didn't mean to say that of you, what I meant was, at that point in time it was a distraction (also because I didn't bother to fold my screen down!)
The SMS was from Bro Zhi Hao, regarding the encouraging email.
And the SMS literally send shudders down my spine. Not only that, but goosebumps all over my skin and my blood froze. It was THAT bad. Hah, I bet you're dying to know what it is. HAH. Shall I tell you?
Of course I won't...................
Not, tell you.
I won't not tell you, so of course I'll tell you!
Wait wait wait. This means I cannot give my blog add to any of the allstars.
I don't think I should blog it.
But what BZH SMSed me was something that shocked me. I emailed what came to mind, and I really didn't expect that it came across quite strongly, to the point that I might appear to become the head of the group, which in BZH's opinion wasn't entirely a bad thing but had it's consequences. But he told me to send the email out.
And I was really really overwhelmed. I was stunned.
I chose the topic just to start the year well and I also hoped to bless them like how Benn has blessed me just by having a blog with a long history ((: It was a simple topic and wasn't very deep, and it's also what I think is one of the most encouraging personal stories I have to tell. Each time I think of it, the thoughts in my head swirl around, like "aweso-amazin-great-cooool". The reason why the words aren't all complete is because I don't finish my thoughts. They come and they go, very quickly. And back to the story. I didn't expect a topic like this to have such an impact. I was really worried about how I was going to 'operate' as a 'regarded' buzz group 'head' (in BZH's words.) Note, it's regarded, not actual.
And even as I was drowning in my sea of inadequacy, there was a song ringing in my head.
Empower me, like a rushing river flowing through the sea
Lord send Your Holy Spirit flowing down through me
Till I'm living as Your child
Victorious and free
Send the power of Your love
Empower me.
I don't know why, but just the 2 words empower me have a wealth of meaning to me. And that, to me, is like God pouring forth His annointing and POWER upon me/whoever is singing!
Amazing.
And goodness me. Why am I using such expressions 'drowning in my sea of..' 'wealth of..'.
oh my tian, school's having an effect on me
*faints*
Come to think of it, haven't been using that for some time!
*gasps*
how fun
*chuckles*
Okay okay I have a lot to talk about about school and all.
I'll change post to differentiate the change in mood ((;
hold me now at 7:17 PM
