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It was awesome awesome AWESOMEEEE.
NEHEMIAH! Yea, the best group((:
I won't say very much about the games, just understand that they were very fun, and at the same time very meaningful.
By the way, MOSES (people like EC, Fang etcetc) moses couldn't have 'trust in Jesus, trust trust in Jesus' because Jesus wasn't there during the time of Moses! HAH xD
Service was great.
The services that left the greatest impact on me were day 1 and day 2 services.
Day 1 it was the worship and altar call that struck me.
It was so amazing to soak in the presence of God without thinking of anything else.
I think worship without music is fab fab fab.
We should do it on purpose in future (:
It's incomprehensible, really, how God works people people are hungry.
That hunger was really in the camp atmosphere.
We had one salvation in camp. WOW. It's like, camp sermons are for believers!
Day 2 (or was it day 3? I think it was day 3, oops!) service it was Bro Andy's preaching that really spoke to me.
I really like Bro Andy's preaching. It's very very clear. It's like, point blanc and really understandable.
No offence to pastor Gary though! He's great too!
Just that I realise that for myself, it's much easier to understand Bro Andy's sermons! I think I need the point 1 point 2 point 3 approach.
But that sermon really spoke to me in a special way.
It addressed one of the things that I was so hungry for in camp- a heart of compassion.
It was the greatest expectation I had for camp that God had met.
The moment Bro Andy started, I knew it was definitely for me.
The sermon was called "Reflecting God's love".
And it was about what love was, what reflections were, and what testimonies were.
And it just dawned upon me that we reach out not because of anything else. We reach out because of love.
I've always treated it as an obligation. Something like "God has commissioned us, therefore we as Christians MUST."
But I now know that we reflect that love because of God. Because of love. Not out of obligation.
And at altar call I just literally cried out to God (for the first time I actually cried like crazy, don't even know why. Just at that moment I just experience that love of God and I was so, so touched!) and I made a commitment to God to reach out by being a testimony, all the time, everywhere, and to do it only because of love.
Oh and then we were split into lower sec/upper sec/zone 2.
I found out I was transfered out of Sis Kassey's buzz group. I was tearing when I heard it.
And when I was hugging Sis Kassey I was wailing and crying my guts out.
Honestly, my first time crying in public since the first day of kindergarten when I lost my handkerchief.
I can understand why I cried.
My buzz group, or at least Sis Kassey and the people, especially the sec 1s (I'm scared of people older than me..) have been a group of people I hold very close to my heart.
I remember the low times this year, especially the time when my dad was hospitalised.
I only told 3 people about it, all of them were from buzz group.
No offence to you people at school, but I didn't know how to say it/didn't find reasons to say it..
And I cried, of course of Sis Kassey, and because of Deborah Tang.
Sis Kassey has been someone who's been there to encourage me, someone who has believed in me this year. And she's been like, someone I look up to but at the same time treat as a friend.
And as for Deborah Tang, what can I say? Well, I haven't known her for long, but it seems like I have. If you read this, you really don't know how much I appreciate you. I might not act that way because I'm highly unemotional, but really, I trust you a lot and I really really treasure you as a friend.
But as I told the people who tried to 'comfort' me as I cried, it's an immediate reaction. I'm not crying now as I type this.
I'm learning to look at the bigger picture.
To trust in the leaders' plans and decisions.
Even if right now, the leaders ask me if I would like to return to Sis Kassey's buzz group, I would say no. Because I know that when they decided on this arrangement, they had considered relationships. And very apparently, between Deb and myself. And well, they probably felt that it would be more beneficial for us to go to different buzz groups!
I've told myself many many times yesterday that I will take this challenge in my stride and do my best to contribute to Bro Zhi Hao's buzz group, and also to be an encouragement to the Sec 1s just as Benavon has been to me this year. Benavon is my role model! (:
Battery runnning out! Better go!
Share a xmas!
Yay!
Bye!
hold me now at 9:31 PM
