List up to ten things you want to say to ten different people in no particular order. Do not state who these people are.
1. I thank God so, so much for you. I can't imagine how the year would have been without you. Your encouragement and all of your advice I really appreciate. I remember how God amazingly made us friends. Actually we've only known each other for a really short time, but we've grown to become very close. And I know that this friendship is one with Christ as the foundation, loving and edifying each other in Christ! I realise that I've not been encouraging you much, at least, not as much as I think I should. I see that heart of yours that loves God so much, and I know that God will use you to do works for him, big, mighty works as well as the little things that mean so much to Him! I really appreciate you, very very much. I don't know what to say; I've been very honest with you because you're so... Approachable, and there isn't much left which isn't mushy that I haven't said. You're a great IH because (as I wrote on your hand) you really make people feel comfortable around you!
2. We've been friends since, almost forever. I've got a thousand, billion sorries to say to you. There's so much I've kept from you in the past, and even now we're not as close as I would have wanted, though we're still really good friends. And though I told myself I wouldn't keep anything else from you, well, I shall say here that I haven't been telling you that I worry for you. I mean, your results are good, fantastic, and you're popular, pretty and talented. You seem to have achieved the 'pinnacle of success' in nearly every area of school life. At least, to me, it seems. But there's something I really wanted to tell you, to share with you, the joy I've found in the King. But but but but BUT I never could, or at least I never DARED to muster up enough courage to speak to you at all. I guess, it's the closeness between us that ironically becomes a barrier when it comes to this. It's sensitive, and it's... Awkward. But I know that when God empowers me, or someone else, to speak to you, you will open your heart and you will receive, because I know that God loves you very much! (:
3. I know this is really weird. I barely know you, and I haven't really spoken much to you. And I remember the day when we were in school and I knew I had to speak to you, so I booked recess. And there were people in class and I had to get them out and it was so, so weird. I know I owe you a phone call, but I just don't have that gut to do it. I don't know; you stay so far from church, it'll be unreasonable to get you over, but at the same time, I saw your needs. I used to think you were, well, nearly perfect. You got the best grades, seemingly the best friends and all that. And that was like, more than most other people. But when I got to know you, I realised that you had your needs, your hurts. And I realised that no matter how smart, how strong someone may be, it's so true that all of us, each and everyone, we need the Lord. And the reason for my blog URL was to remind myself and those who type it in THAT. I'll be praying!
4. You've been a great companion. Talkative, cute and all. Although sometimes I found you a wee bit obnoxious, I told myself, everyone has faults. There's a lot I've been wanting to tell you. As Christians, well, I guess we should set standards for ourselves. It's not true that I'm holy. It's also not true that you can't be. Because what God wants to see is the heart. It's the heart that loves Him, that really matters. I don't know about you, but I also think that it is important for us as Christians to live life right before God, and to live as good testimonies because we are the children of God! Many a time I've kept you in prayer, praying that God would soften your heart, to be quicker to forgive, slower to criticise! But read His word and grow!(:
5. You. You seem a little cold to me, I guess. I don't know you very well, though we've known each other for quite a long time. I'm glad that God has given you a very receptive open heart. But you know, salvation and discipleship are... Different. And they come one after another. I'd like to see you around more often, and to be able to talk to you more. I'm glad you weren't totally creeped by my long long phone call that day! At least, so it seemed. And I really hope to see you rise up someday to serve God, out of your love for Him, with your many blessings!
6. I would say a billion things to you. But not here. And not anywhere you would be reading, for sure. I don't know what to do about this whole thing. But what I can do is thank you. You were a great encouragement to me in the beginning of my walk with God. You were a role model for me. Ironically, as some time passed, problems arose for me. But still, what I can say is thanks, and God bless!
7. I guess I never dared to say much to you, because I'm scared of you. But sometimes I think you have a warped understanding of forgiveness. Or, of serving, or even of God. I'm not sure, maybe I just misunderstand. But still, you've been really nice, nearly like a friend. I don't confide in you the REALLY private things in my life. I kept it to myself at first, but later I told a friend. I don't tell you stuff because you don't really understand. And you expect a tad too much. Still, you've been really nice. And I can't imagine life without you.
8. You've been nice, nice, nice, nice and nice. That's all I could ever say. You're so tolerant, yet strict at times. Which is good. And you pamper me too! When I want stuff, you usually let me have it xD But I hope you'll come to like church, instead of wanting to go back to Grace? I respect you a lot!
9. Thank you for believing in me. Sometimes I really feel that I don't live up to your expectations for me. You encourage me, and tell me that I can do things that I really never thought I would be able to do. You challenged me and prayed for me and although I don't really know you very very very very well, you would make time for me in SMSes and sometimes even calls, or meals. You always seemed to understand what I'm going through, whatever it is that I tell you. There are stuff that I felt I should tell you, but never really had the courage to do so. I don't want to, because it's just so weird, and at the same time I don't want you to stop expecting from me, even though I don't think you won't. I know it'll be good for me, but I always told myself there's no need for me to tell you. I always told myself that if I could solve the problem on my own, I wouldn't need your help. I always told myself, oh those things aren't that bad, it's fine if I just continue. But I know it isn't the case and I know that it would be good if I got help. But...... I don't know why; I never seem to be able to bring myself to do it. Well, I'm trying something out. If it doesn't work, or if I really really feel the need to tell you, or if God tells me to, I'll go to you. No matter what the stakes are, no matter how hard it will be. But really, thanks so much for your love!(:
10 (it's so hard to decide on the last person!). Okay well I thank all of you. The many many many many many many many many of you who have shown me so much love, you have made me so happy, so comfortable. Especially those of you know me xD I appreciate! And well, grow in God!
Okay. There. 10.
I think.
This post is so EMO.
And so... direct?
I tried not to be though, even though, I'm giving everything away!
