I read this at the IGNYTE@Adam blog. By Bro Aaron. Very timely.
5 loaves and 2 fishes
Friday, October 5, 2007
It always touches me how God uses the small, the weak, the least significant things/people to do His most amazing and powerful works and miracles. (1 Cor 1:27)
- Through a wooden staff, He brought His people out of Egypt
- He anointed a shepherd boy as King
- A manger was the birth place of Jesus
- He spoke through a donkey.
Recently, one of these miracles that impacted me greatly is one that is very close to my heart, or rather, my stomach. Haha…it is about food.
While listening to Corrinne May’s latest album, the lyrics of “Five Loaves & Two Fishes” was a big reminder for me. During that season, I was going through road blocks in my life and they seemed impossible to overcome. Sometimes I would just cry myself to sleep (yes, I do cry), because the hurt and the pain I experienced made me feel so small and insignificant. It seemed that nothing I do matters anymore. Slowly, I begin to feel the fire and passion within me die out.
But as I listened to the chorus…
Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
To feed them all / I hope it's not too small / You can use it all
… a small lump formed in my throat, and before I could control myself, tears were streaming down. It is just so true. So what if I’m small? So what if I’m insignificant?? If God can use a boy’s lunch to meet the needs for over 5000 men, women and children, what more can He do with my life? All I have to do is to present myself to God and let Him do the rest. Why do I have to worry that what I am doing may mean nothing? 5 loaves and 2 fishes are probably nothing to thousands of hungry people, but in God’s hands, they fed the thousands till everyone ate their fill. A friend once reminded me, “We are not saviors of the world, but our God is.”
So let’s just leave everything in His mighty hands.
I often think about that boy
When I am feeling small
And I worry that the work I do
Means nothing at all
But every single tear I cry
Is a diamond in His hands
And every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer
So I'll give you every breath I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All you need is my "Amen"
Amazing.
I know I only voiced my discouragement very recently.
Yesterday?
Or the day before.
And I hear my answer.
I hear the Lord saying "All you need is the faith the size of a mustard seed, you can move mountains."
And a lot of verses are streaming into my head.
"For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future"
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"
I wonder, why did I ever doubt?
hold me now at 6:26 PM
