Forget about hiatus! I just have so much to say.
I've done WORK at LONG LAST.
Did a teeny bit of chinese (dan1 yuan2 1.1 from 1A) and read all the biology essential readings.
Felt good.
Church was FANTASTIC!
Worship was impactful.
Sermon spoke to me.
It was about Ruth, Naomi and Orpah in the book of Ruth.
I haven't really read that book, but I remember reading Bible stories of it when I was a teeny kid. Okay, I admit I remembered mainly the pictures, but HEY they help too!
I remember this picture so vividly. There was Naomi in the middle, Ruth hugging onto her, and an arrow pointing outwards to Moab with Orpah walking towards it. After hearing pastory Gary's message, everything just crystalised. It was amazing.
To help myself refresh what I've learnt and experienced at the altar call, I shall type my sermon notes here and recount my altar call experience.
I remember previous weeks where God touched me at the altar. Yet a couple of days into the week, I had already lost my follow-through between the altar and the door. Haha yep that's the casting crowns song I heard on ernchuen's blog.
Okay here goes! Sermon notes (summarised) :
Ruth chose to cling onto Naomi.
Orpah chose to return to Moab.
In times of trial, will I say "Lord let Your will be my will" and place my trust in Him?
Or will I be like Orpah and return to my old ways?
OF COURSE I WANT TO BE LIKE RUTH :D HEEHEE
1. Ruth chose to humble herself
-> Pride causes us to be numb towards God's voice and blind towards His ways
2. Ruth chose to wait on God
-> I admit I don't trust God sometimes when I pray hard about something and I don't get a reply from God. But sometimes it's just these moments of silence that God teaches me to fully place my trust in God, to wait on Him and TO KNOW that He does what's best!
And altar call was great.
I really hesitated when I went forward and I didn't see anyone going. I'm actually quite scared of going 'first', but anyway I did. WHEE. I knelt at the altar, and the feeling of not caring about anything EXCEPT for God was just so great. Being rather self-conscious, I usually care about a lot of stuff which distracts me from God sometimes. But kneeling at the altar, it just gave me this fresh encounter. A NEW DESPERATION (:
And I remember praying for a lot of things. I guess it's quite weird to say it here, though it's nothing private. Never mind, I'll say it anyway :D
Basically I prayed to be like Ruth. That no matter the circumstances I will CLING ON to God and TRUST in Him. I prayed for obedience again, which is my 'waiting matter'. And I prayed to be humble because I think I've said many times that my self-esteem is WAY too high. D:
And I prayed for breakthrough. Because so many times I've gone to the altar. I've sensed God's presence, I've felt His touch. And He HAS given me breakthrough. But in the obedience/discipline/focus thing, I've been trying. I've really been trying. But I face obstacle after obstacle, internal, external, EVERYTHING. I've gone to the altar and get touched by God, words from God through leaders/songs/EVERYTHING, yet it's still about the follow-through, between the altar and the door. These words just keep ringing in my mind. Scary, sure, but terribly real. And I haven't received breakthrough. So let me say I'm still praying and believing :D Thank God anyway.
YAY
OKay I haven't exactly finished bio revision. And worst thing is, I haven't started my homework.
OH BUT THANK GOD FOR 1 OCT! Holidays lalalalalalalalalala.............
Just now my parents got quite unreasonable. After church and during dinner. They're fine now though!
Yay
God bless!
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