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I don't know why, somehow I've recently been very unsure about practically EVERYTHING. It seems like God isn't answering my questions, and everything has become very uncertain. It's not that God isn't there; He's always there. But I don't know; I just feel... Dry. And a little empty. And I don't think I've ever felt this way before. There's something I've been wondering about, I've asked God about, and the answers seem totally weird. Some time ago He gave me one answer, now He's giving me another. And I've been reading blogs again. Sis Cheryl and Sis Esther posted on the IGNYTE @ Adam blog. I shall summarise into one liners! Sis Cheryl's post: Seize the moment. Sis Esther's post: Life is like a jigsaw puzzle. And sis Esther's post spoke to me, I guess. It's telling me that just because I'm not seeing the whole picture doesn't mean that pieces aren't falling into place. It doesn't mean that the picture will never be formed. It just means, wait. And it's this waiting that really gets me tired. It's like, I don't know what I'm going to do. I just feel a bit direction-less, though actually all I have to do is do my best and study. No wait. I think I'm getting it. SO ALL I'M SUPPOSED TO DO FOR NOW IS STUDY! That's why suddenly all that (no details here) was suddenly cut off, why suddenly all the work He's done seems to have come to a standstill. Well. God really does work in amazing ways isn't it. BLOGS CAN SPEAK TOO! Although it feels like I'm speaking, God's speaking too! This feel amazingly cool. I read some other blogs like EC's blog. Something about battle and victory (ahh memory lapse.) I shall go and 'steal' his post....
It is one thing to get touched by God at the altar. But will we keep our follow-through between the altar and the door? I have succumbed so many times after an experience at the altar-- the battle is fought not in services, but in our everyday lives. If we just keep living on our past altar calls, we are going to lose the battle. Until now, I am still fighting this battle. No one really knows what I'm talking about, but I'm not exaggerating: the battle is intense. So intense. I would love to say "Breakthrough happened immediately after the altar call." No, it is not like that. The battle for me is slogged out; it is ongoing, excruciating, tiring, frustrating. And just like that, when you have fought this battle with perseverance, victory comes. A gradual and painful victory, yes. But a victory worth every fighting for. A victory I am fighting for.
"I ask God why I am under such heavy attack. Why this war is so intense I can't take it anymore. Then God reminds me of the warrior I will rise up to be if the war is won..."
And Ariel's: Let Go and Let God. In everything, Go for God. (sorry I'm ONLY copying a small portion; it spoke to me most!)
I read Benn's blog too, but I didn't understand what she was saying! Gosh. Haha. Anyway, I HAD BETTTER REALLY GET TO STUDYING NOW! xD
