90th post!
Wow. Service was awesome.
Worship- fantastic.
God's presence was so strong. It was simply amazing. We sang this song, not sure what it's called but the chorus goes:
You are my freedom
Jesus You're the reason I'm kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You
Here in my life
And I was just reminded of what God has done in my life. He's transformed me from a really mean, vulgar, sick person to who I am now. Not saying I'm perfect or anything, but at the very thought of where I would be without the Lord, I broke down. I imagined myself, going about life, chasing after grades, guys, popularity and power. Not that I don't want those things now, they are still good to have. But I don't need them, because the Lord's in control and He gives me my identity.
Holy communion. Great. There was this song, not sure what it is, but some lines of lyrics go:
He has been good
He has been good
He's been so good to me
And it really spoke to me so much about the times when I didn't even think of God, but God thought of me, and He cared for me and guided me for the past 13 years of my life, living life comfortably, suffering little, and even when I did, God healed the hurt in my heart and gave me JOY, PEACE and turned the situation around.
Sermon- great!
Basically bro andy spoke about our church's core values:
1. Passionate Honour
2. Audacious Fervor
3. Relentless Belief
4. Contagious Faith
And how these things can help us to care and connect to the people around us. You know I've been feeling a little distant from God, which means I don't really hunger to please God as much, which means I've become a sort of self-centred person. It's like, instead of praying for my oikos and my friends, it's like I pray for myself 90% of the time, and if there's extra time then I'll start praying for others. Not good.
Altar call felt like a time for breakthrough for me. Pastor Gary told us to pray against self-centredness and indifference and give us a heart of COMPASSION. And I prayed hard, prayed strong. I really felt God speaking to me. And one song I was reminded of was To the Ends of the earthLove unfailing
Overtaking my heart
You take me in
Finding peace again
Fear is lost
In all you are
And I would give the world to tell Your story
Cause I know that You've called me
I know that You've called me
I've lost myself for good within Your promise
I won't hide it
I won't hide it
Jesus, I believe in You
And I would go to the ends of the earth
To the ends of the earth
For You alone are the Son of God
And all the world will see
That You are God
You are God
Not sure why, but each time I think of this song, I just think of God and just want to serve Him, praise Him. Which is a good thing. Sis Christine came over and she told me that she saw a picture of me holding some really pretty pebbles, and I treasured them so much. And she saw that my friends were around me and I was struggling if I should share the pebbles with them.
That was again, really apt. It's like, this gift of salvation, we can't keep to ourselves, but should really reach out to the people around us. Because people need the Lord. Which is a reason behind http://people-need-the-Lord.blogspot.com ! And as time went by, this concept that's so simple just faded away. And now it's back.
Pastor Gary gave us homework. Approach 3 friends and ask them for needs, and ask to pray for them. If they agree, pray. If not, promise to pray at home.
I found that a FANTASTIC idea. It needed a great deal of courage, faith, but I know 1 person I want to approach. My classmate. My groupmate. I see needs. I saw them long ago, I just didn't have the courage to step out, to approach her. WIll pray for 2 more names.
Dinner was quite bad because I didn't eat anything, just had soyabean. Good thing my parents got my mashed potato from KFC after that.
FUEL was good. It was about Moses, how God was in control, how God had a purpose and destiny for Moses, that God planned everything for Him.
Which is something I've just been thinking about.
You know my grades have been really bad because of my lack of focus and all that, and I've been really worried about who I would become 10/20 years down the road. All the same, though my destiny lies in God's hands, my share of effort has to go in. And I know that with the help of God, it will.
I look forward to meeting Sis Kassey and Janne during the holidays. Have to contact them but have to use my dad's phone to SMS (mine's left with ONE CENT!)
Well, and I have to spend TAWG, sleep and do Bio peetee and hopefully finish it tomorrow, and Monday and Tuesday can be rest days!
FOCUS
DETERMINATION
Philippians 3:14
Philippians 4:13
Exodus 14:14
I can do it.
BTW if you don't know those verses, check BibleGateway
Yep.
Bye!
Goodnight!
And I still do ____ __ but I'll just leave it as a passive crush.
And I found out that the p6 one and the current one both have the same number of letters. GOSH. xP
I hope I'm not revealing too much information!
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