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Today was quite nice, enjoyed it. In the morning, math. Took advanced strand test. OH PURHH. That was bad. I misread the second question and because of that lost 4 marks. I think I got the marks from the other question and the first part of that question. But in the test, 4 marks is nearly half the paper! Ahh it's ok I'm not that desperate to get into advanced strand. I hope you people know my passion is SCIENCE (: WHEE. Anyway after the test, I was quite frustrated I misread the question and appeared quite sad so Clarisse Chu was trying to 'comfort' me. She was trying to list my strengths but I just told her, "Don't try". Just to clarify, I didn't mean, don't try, I have none. I ACKNOWLEDGE God's gifts to me, what I meant was, "I don't talk about them, and I suppose you might not know." But Clarisse went on and started to say that I am "very strong in my faith". So I stopped her and I shared with her that no, I'm not strong, actually I'm a very young Christian, in the sense that I developed a relationship with God very recently, and about how I would be like last year at that very moment (like vulgar and sick and stuffs). She was kinda shocked and she said, something along of the lines of "it's hard to imagine" and I was quite shocked. I know God has been good to me but I never realised that someone would say that! And that was actually an encouragement to me. At the same time I also know that there are areas in my life that are not right. Especially: 1. I gossip 2. I lie 3. I don't always respect and obey authority For point 1, it's the people I mix around with. I don't mean to insult people or put people down. What I mean is, I know I shouldn't, but when I talk to some people, because we're all talkative we'll just end up gossiping. It's not good. But I'm not sure I'm courageous/strong enough to tell these people (who are christian too) that we need to put a stop to this. I'm sure if we ACTIVELY make a decision to stop gossiping, it's going to be easier done together. Okay so much for that. After recess, MEP! (: We did some 1812 overture thing, quite cool! Canon! As in, the big thing that shoots stuff out (: And we listened to Carnival of Animals and Peter and the Wolf. BUT I still prefer the young person's guide to the orchestra! It's SUPER DOOPED cool! :D CLE was fun! Mr Ho knew how to make us happy (: And calm us down for lit. After CLE I went behind the lockers to pray. I don't know; I was just so tense, so nervous I needed some peace. Actually after that I wanted to pray with lanabel but she was talking and after that the teacher came in with the papers. So, no chance. It's okay I prayed for her and my friends too. That they won't say negative stuff. AH that's one thing that I do too. And my parents say that's placing curses on yourself. So it's to be avoided! GAHH. Oh and after that, GB!! I HEART HEART HEART HANNAH'S WORSHIP! I don't know, the songs weren't those I knew very well, and in that way, the lyrics spoke to me. BUT the one that spoke to me most was the one I was SUPER familiar with. Somehow, I never realised the meaning of the lyrics when I sung in the past. This is a bad habit because when I was in choir and stuff, I never bothered to understand! But anyway I'll type the lyrics here:
Lord I come to You Let my heart be changed, renewed Flowing from the grace that I found in You. Lord I've come to know The weaknesses I see in me Will be stripped away by the power of Your love. Hold me close, let Your love surround me. Bring me near, draw me to Your side. And as I wait, I'll rise up like an eagle. And I will soar with You, Your spirit leads me on In the power of Your love.
I've bolded the parts that really struck me in a new way. It was a great worship. I think I blogged about my weaknesses and stuff right? Yea I don't know, but the inwardly-ego me has kind of developed an inferiority complex. I kind of see a lot of weaknesses in myself and respect so highly those who have what I don't have- intrinsic motivation and discipline. People like JJ and Steph. JJ for being a sensible person and Steph for her PASSION for studying! I was like, "Steph, you enjoy mugging?" and she was like "since you're going to spend the first 20+ years of your life studying, why not enjoy it?" Actually I bear no grudges against studying. I like lessons, I just don't like the homework. To be specific, the backlog I accumulate, which is my fault. LAH. (: Anyway I should go now. Should do my english worksheet. BYE! (:
