This is such a wonderful piece of good news! YAY. MY dad was discharged. (: The tests are still conducted but he returned home! I think... this was a kind of shake up for me not to turn to God in times of trouble only, but I mean I always tried. But when things happen, I realise that my relationship with God is the closest at this time. I know it isn't right, I MUST maintain, but it's really not easy for me.
I was reading Pastor Gary's blog today (I think reading his blog is ok... He rarely blogs and what he blogs are like sermons!) He asked us if we were crowd-lovers or God-lovers. I mean, I know I haven't been very careful in controlling myself from saying stuff (I'm not that vulgar now though) but what's worse is that I lack the courage to correct my Christian friends when they say or do stuff I know they shouldn't do, let alone join them. And that's what I've been doing. When I hear people gossip, I get really uncomfortable but I guess because I wanted to please my friends I joined in. There was once, my friend and I were gossiping about a classmate and another classmate (who wasn't Christian and KNEW we were Christian) pointed out, "ORH... GOSSIP!" My friend and I just grinned, but I felt really bad. I eventually told my friend not to gossip but she just said, "I know I shouldn't be gossiping but it's just too hard not to." I'm really sorry for having to do this, I hope it isn't obvious who exactly I'm talking about, and even if you do know, PLEASE, don't mention names okay. If you're the person reading this, I'm sorry but I think we really need to exercise that self-control (:
I feel bad at picking at others' mistakes, but put it this way, I make those mistakes too! Another thing I feel uncomfortable about is when people say bad things about themselves. It's like putting themselves under bondage, under curse. Moreover, it isn't edifying either. But I (WAS) more guilty of this than gossiping because I can keep myself from gossiping, of course depending on the content xP I don't gossip at home (little, at least) but my family and I (WERE) guilty of this. We tend to say a lot of negative things. Not things like "I am stupid" but more like "I'm very fat, next time look like elephant!" These are usually slips but rebuke in the name of Jesus! I know this post diagresses a lot because I didn't intend to say all this. It came to me SUDDENLY.
Yea so... I don't want to be a crowd-lover, but a GOD-LOVER! But it won't be easy on my own, but I believe with God's help IT IS POSSIBLE (as with all things.) Just now I was about to type, "Actually it's so hard I don't think it's possible" then I thought NO LA, not THAT bad! xP
Okay I'll go do math PT! (:
<3 laura (: <#
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