I really really terribly want to serve! I don't care which ministry (though I do have my preferences xP!) When I see my friends & peers serving I feel sad. I mean, I guess I'm not really ready to serve because so far from the signs I have a feeling I should be in worship... I 'applied' twice and didn't get. Once last Dec, but the audition was during orientation camp. Recently (April) I tried. They interviewed me, it was scary. They told me to open in prayer and I didn't know how! Anyway training started in Dec so they would still have to interview me again if I got in in June! xP But I feel I wasn't ready. I wonder if now is the time, this Dec, or should I join another ministry FIRST to grow and serve in the meantime? Because to become a serving musician of course you must be very very spiritually strong and stuff. And an SP. I wanted to go for SP course but it clashed with my holiday. But when I looked at people like Ruth and Ariel and Benn I get SCARED. I mean, I don't think I'm ready. I'll prepare myself for the next one (: Hopefully in June!
I'm going to do the stones cry out thing now. I've been doing alternate days, which is NO GOOD. It's regular, but not often enough! Okay BYE! (:
hold me now at 10:09 PM
