For a long time I wanted to post this but failed.
Anyway, I'll try!
From the moment I heard PGC use the word casualty, I told myself I would do anything not to become one.
But I nearly did.
It hasn't been an easy time for me, post-camp.
All was good for 14th and 15th, just that I was really quite busy, with SAC and all...
16th was fantastic, of course!
SAC.
But you people know what happened right?
Okay besides the physical understanding of it which I talked about, I was beginning to move backwards spiritually.
You see, BATTLECALL was, for me, shifting the focus from myself to others.
But the devil obviously didn't like that, and I was attacked crazily.
And for the 16th, 17th and 18th Dec, it was really bad.
I was very emotionally down, and that reflected in my actions.
I became very short tempered and TAWG was difficult.
I kinda did it on alternate days and out of a sense of obligation.
My prayers became self-centred and inward looking.
On the 19th, when things got better, I was so happy, I just chucked God aside.
And when I went on holiday, it didn't get better.
Well, I would turn to God when my mum was sick, for a while, during the holiday...
I won't talk about the holiday now because this is post focuses more on the spiritual side of thing xD
And the period of post-camp, which I believe for many IGNYTErs was a great time of growth, became a Christian holiday for me. I didn't spend TAWG on the 19th, 20th, 22nd, 23rd, 24th, 25th and 27th.
And yesterday's TAWG was spent halfway.
And TAWG from 17th-19th was half-hearted.
Bad?
Really bad.
I've never slided backwards so quickly after a camp before. But I know what's important is to look ahead, focus on God and to get out of this Christian holiday as soon as possible so that I will once again be ready to connect others, and for next year, to be a good senior and role model to the sec 1s'08 of bro zhi hao's buzz group.
Oh and I joined IH!
Oh and 12 days after that was asked if I wanted to join worship min by bro alex (yesterday, actually).
He wanted me to push PGC for SP interview. I didn't say so, but I'm not ready for it.
Not at the present moment.
I need to get out of this thing, quick.
And, I still don't know if it's IH or worship min.
I wanted to type worship min first but I decided not to since IH is 'officially' my ministry!
HAHA.
Well, I really should get serious, pray and seek God.
Shall go spend TAWG now.
hold me now at 12:09 PM
