Have you ever felt sometimes you need to let go of some things? When i was young, the most difficult to let go, is the desire to get the toys i want. I would cry big time at the shopping centre hoping that my parents would buy me that particular toy. Well, many times it did not go my way. Then as we grow up, we realized it more than toys... sometimes it could be things that we treasure and possessed for the longest time. I think the most difficult part being a Christian is learning to submit and allow God to take away my treasured possessions. I was doing my tawg and the Holy Spirit reminded me this verse, where your heart is, there will also lay your treasure. In other words, God was asking me do you trust me enough to give your treasured things and allow me to work at it and allow your heart to be possessed by only God alone.
Many times, i thought i have given up then i realized i have not. Maybe it can get a little tiring. it's like u know it but then your feeling tells you other wise but i think that is a process of growing and understand God's bigger plan for my life.
As you read my blog, what are the things you treasuring and you feel God is calling you to give up? Sometimes, it can be as simple as giving up playing certain games that takes away your time in spending God to Friends you love to people who are close to you but knowing that it would be better to watch from afar.
Life is full of surprises, many times things does not last long but one thing for sure, God's plan and love for you and I is eternal. Got to remind myself everyday as i allow the Master to take my treasures one by one.
The moment I saw the Title of Pastor Gary's post (which is the title of my own post here), I knew very well that God was speaking to me.
I think some of you know from my previous posts that there's something I'm struggling with and I'm really trying to release my grip from. And sometimes I'm content simply telling myself that it's okay, and it's not 100% ABSOLUTELY necessary to let go of.
And at the point in time when I'm typing this, well, I'm trying. I'm really trying. I wrote in my TAWG journal my prayer for strength. I'm exhausted by all this trying. It's okay most of the time, but I struggle when... (I don't know how to continue without divulging more info)...
Actually I was on the verge of just letting go- giving up. But I realise that God is renewing my strength and determination each time I find my will weak.
Deborah Tang told me to stay strong, not give up. And to know that someone is behind you and supporting you is a great encouragement in itself.
And now, Pastor Gary's post. Well, what I can say is that, really, God is good, and His mercy endures forever.
Anyway, let me change topic. I was in my mum's car, and my mum said,"Nowadays I notice you don't say very much to your friends."
Then I don't know why, but I suddenly said,"Actually I never really did. I either had very talkative friends who talked most of the time so I could insert my input only occasionally, or I was gossiping. And since nowadays I try not to gossip at all, there isn't very much to say."
UHHUH.
That's quite true. Actually.
Hahahaha. And my mum said,"You've grown a lot this year."
Which is surprising she even noticed because when I'm with my mum I... Don't really like to talk about the real stuff that my life revolves around. I'm close to my parents but I'm not really comfortable. Don't know why.. I usually escape by talking about the things that HER life revolves around.
Makes things easier for me.
My parents oppose relationships.
But they are really weird in the sense that they tend to enjoy 'matchmaking' me with people for fun.
And, the whole terrible thing about it is that they tend to be.... Quite right.
I don't usually talk about guys at home.
But when they do pick up names from phone calls or anything and everything, they would be like "What's -random guy's name- like? Cute? Smart? etcetcetc"
There's something else that's very creepy about them.
But I shan't say here because I'm a secretive person.
But if you're dying of curiosity you can always come and ask me!
Actually, I already said it, I just realised.
Well, I didn't elaborate, so it's up to your interpretation.
No wait. It would be better if I elaborated, because interpretations are fatal.
Aren't they?
Oh and I went to the Dentist today.
Not the orthodontist.
The regular dentist.
She gave me this tooth moose thing.
Strawberry flavour hahaha.
My mum was rather disgusted, I think.
And AND AND AND AND OMG HOW COULD I FORGET.
MY MUM CALLED DR WONG SU SUN!!
YOU KNOW THAT CHOIR CONDUCTOR WHO CALLED ME LAUGHING QUEEN WHEN I WAS 5?
YEA THAT ONE.
NO WAIT YOU DIDN'T EVEN KNOW HER BECAUSE I NEVER MENTIONED HER!
HAHAHA.
HAHAHA.
ANYWAY, ANYWAY!!
MY MUM WANTED TO SIGN ME UP FOR VOCAL TRAINING ~WHEE~
WHICH MEANS I CAN'T SCREAM AT WILL ANYMORE.
SIGH.
WHICH IS GOOD THOUGH.
HAHAHA.
ANYWAY, DR WONG, SHE HASN'T SEEN ME IN 5 YEARS.
I LEFT HER CHOIR IN P2 BECAUSE WE WERE LAZY TO RUSH DOWN TO WATERLOO STREET EVERY SATURDAY MORNING.
HAHAHA
Why was I typing in caps?
xD
Anyway, ANYWAY,
My mum called her SISTER.
because Dr Wong never gave us her number (cos like she's busy and stuff)
so her sister was liasing with us and all that.
So my mum was like "When I told her sister that you were from her choir 5 years ago, she sounded shocked, but interested"
HEH.
HEH.
I WANT IT, BADLY.
BUT I'M SERIOUSLY WORRIED I WOULDN'T GET IN.
AFTER SO MUCH SCREAMING.
SO MUCH CHILI.
I REALLY REALLY REALLY DON'T KNOW IF MY VOICE QUALITY IS THE SAME AS IT WAS 5 YEARS AGO.
IT'S.... A BIG DIFFERENCE.
WELL, I HAVEN'T BEEN PRACTISING, AND I'M NOT IN SCHOOL CHOIR EITHER.
And my pitching has become not as good as it was in the past.
As in, I can TELL when something is out of tune (I can only tell if it's at least half a semitone off though) just that sometimes I get frustrated at myself when I can hear the note in my mind but take more than 2 tries to get it right.
I think I'm rambling on and on and on.
And on and on and on.
I had better call Joey to practise for publicity tomorrow.
Or we'll embarrass ourselves in front of lower sec.
*GASPS*
Well, bye!