I bet you know this person named Laura has a lot of backlog. But I'm pretty sure you didn't know that she has blogging backlog too! (:
Though I haven't cleared my homwork, I have a sudden compulsion to clear my blogging backlog. Honestly speaking, blogging isn't exactly the most enjoyable thing for me to do! I just like the feeling of being able to bring back memories when I read my posts (:
So... Today, today, what did I do? (Sorry I'm a bit random and high!)
OH YES. Guess what? I went to the dentist. YIKES. Laura's doesn't really like dentist, and this trip to the dentist wasn't very pleasant. In class, this girl brought the dentist's list. And one of them was "shi ying", my chinese name. But we all thought it was tan shiyin until I saw the list and it said lim shi ying. And I screamed. I think Lanabel was annoyed (she doesn't like my laughs and screams). HAHA.
The dentist was somewhat inexperienced. My teeth were okay, I think, but he used this sharp object to scrape at the 'intersection' between my gums and my teeth! GROSS. And he told to gargle. Before I gargled I had to spit out the liquid in my mouth right? Guess what I spat out. Blood. ICKS.
While I was at the dentist, some classmates were taking the advanced strand math test. I don't know if I want to go to RA Math or if I'm good enough, because I'm more of a science-y person (ISN'T IT SO MUCH MORE INTERESTING?!) But I want to take it because taking any RA subject would be GOOD, right? Since I might not get RA Physics/Bio/Chem. Mrs Sia said she would look through my results. I hope she doesn't forget. She's really biased. It's not her fault, she's really a good teacher, nice and stuff but too straightforward! She can really put people down and make them cry. Her children are geniuses so maybe she expects everyone to be like them! But Mrs Sia never offended me, though she didn't give me a good comment like she did for the Math O training people. I didn't take the test! Didn't bother. A bit regretful, but I live for God and not for man! (: YEAH!
After school we had this 100K blessings thing by Ms Wong's church. Her youth pastor gave us this form thing to fill in so she could pray for us! I asked to be prayed in the areas of:
-fullness of the Holy Spirit
-friendships and relationships
-wisdom and intelligence
-inner peace
Each of these because of my current situations or personality in general.
Oh and backtrack a bit. To last friday.
We had assembly! Mrs Tan spoke to us. She said some things that were so relevant then I wanted to cry! Imagine Laura crying...
She spoke to us about Oprah Winfrey coming from an underprivileged family, yet made such a name for herself. When asked what it was that led her to her success, she said that she knew she wanted her circumstances to change. It wasn't detailed, but she knew what she wanted to achieve, which reminded me instantly about Philippians 3:14.
I've typed that so often I don't feel like anymore. But it's "I press on towards the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward through Christ Jesus."
Not detailed, but that will be what I want to achieve (:
Oprah also spoke of her father in some interviews. He was a strict father, but Oprah thanked Him for being that way. Hearing that, I thought of God. It's like God. He's strict, He wants His children to obey His commands. But He does it for us. He loves us, and His commands are meant to help us!
During assembly Mrs Tan also spoke of Stephanie Sun and the use of the gifts she had. I don't know, but recently some things have been popping up from different people, in different situations, different places, but they all spoke of those few things.
1. Make the most use of the gifts from God
2. Serve God, do all things for the glory of God
3. SP. I don't know. I never felt I was ready for this at this point in time. But during the previous IGNYTE, Sis Christine AND Sis Alicia BOTH asked me if I was going for the next SP course. When Sis Alicia asked, I told her no, I wasn't ready. But when Sis Christine asked over dinner, I was unsure. No one had EVER asked me if I wanted to go for the SP course, and I never felt ready. But after being asked twice, I didn't know. I became quite unsure. My TAWG has stabilised, I even spent TAWG this morning at 12.45am! History PT la. But DONE WITH IT (: But does that mean I'm ready? Actually, I would love to be an SP. I wonder what it would be like. And I know if this is God's timing, I WILL BE ready and know it. And since I don't even know when it is, I'm just going to pray about it and see how God leads (:
Oh and sometimes I wonder, those SPs, did they behave/pray/speak the way they do before SP course? xP I really do wonder.
Oh speaking of decisions, a junior recently suggested I join worship ministry to serve God in an interest area of mine (: Hmm... I'll pray about it too!
Actually praying is really fun (: YAY.
Ohohoh and backtrack some more. The lit lesson before assembly, Mrs Loh pointed out that the fact all of us were sitting safely in a classroom, ENCOURAGED to study was a miracle. And it struck me that I had taken the blessings of God for granted- AGAIN.
There are many things on my mind and I feel a little anxious about my drive/motivation etc.
But no.
1 Peter 5:7
Cast your anxieties on Him, for He cares for you.
Somewhere else it also says, "Do not worry about anything, but in everything, by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your request be made known to God. And the peace of God, which passes all understanding, will keep your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus."
Oh and there is a song we sang in GB 2 weeks ago. It just keeps ringing in my mind.
And I will trust in the Lord,
lean not on my own understanding,
in all my ways acknowledge Him.
Let your will be done in my life.
Let your will be done in my life.
hold me now at 5:38 PM
